Seseh, Bali, Indonesia.
The not so good news is that my experience of bliss that came over me on Monday lasted less than 48 hours and then things turned back to normal. After having abided in nirvana for almost 2 full days I was back in samsara.
The very good news is that my samsara of this moment has heavenly qualities. I am in Kura Kura Yoga Retreat, a brand new yoga resort with a residential program. That means that it is a sort of miniature monastery devoted to the practice of yoga. This is not a yoga retreat where you can flex and stretch and lounge around the pool. This is a place created to facilitate spiritual enlightenment. But it still has a gorgeous pool. And a gorgeous garden, gorgeous rooms and gorgeous food.
But the best news is that Kura Kura has gorgeous teachers. Satya and Sahaj are the spiritual space holders of this place. I met Satya during my previous visit to Bali with my buddy Mike. He followed her teacher training, if I am not mistaken. I connected with Satya through Facebook because I remembered she had a vision of creating a place for yoga and surfing. Within hours I received an invitation to come check out their new place: her and Sahaj’ dream came true! When I arrived I found out that Kura Kura has not officially opened his doors yet, I would say the construction work is finished for 98%.
When we sat down to chat I realized that I was talking to spiritually highly developed human beings. And if the place still needed work, perhaps I could lend a hand? After sharing how we both spend the 1.5 year since we seen each other, both parties having a rather unusual story, I asked them if I could be their student. They said yes.
I arrived yesterday and today was my first day of receiving teaching. Slowly but surely I started to realize how unique this situation is. I receive private teaching from both teachers who seem to have decided to pump as much as they can inside of me. Satya and Sahaj are about 10 years my senior and are on the spiritual path much longer than me. It is amazing for me to speak and train with people who are so much ahead of me in their process. I feel like a baby. It is also humbling: it makes me realize I know so little. What do I have to offer?
My first gross impression is that working with these teachers is a complete different story from any other yoga class that I have done. It is working with energy, chakra’s, singing bowls, postures and meditation. Most importantly: I am exposed to their presence and there is something going on in their energy fields. It was not (yet) demanding on my body but at the end of the morning session with Sahaj I found myself crying, mourning about old feelings of abandonment. In the afternoon Satya brought tears to my eyes when I realized she would accept me completely as the human being that I am at this moment.
I feel very grateful. Once again the Universe has led me to a very special place. I will stay here for 10 days. The first day alone gave me the feeling of being in a washing machine. Let’s see how much I can learn in the days to come. Seems I am up for another roller coaster ride.
Oh, and tomorrow is my first surfing lesson!
This is amazing brother. Seems like you are still more connected to India than anywhere else. Few words you mentioned in this blog are very familiar words to those working with Indian philosophy and spirituality. Nirvana, Samsara, Satya, Sahaj ! Amazing. I never thought of finding these very words in your blog. Perhaps I will soon see the word ‘samadhi’ in your blog soon!
Wow! What a beautiful and amazing opportunity. I am very excited for you and the experiences you will have, and for the roller coaster ride… which may not feel good, maybe make you queasy, but the fact you get to experience it gives you a wonderful opportunity that will only bring more good to you. Right?!
It was nice to read your disclosure, “(they) are on the spiritual path much longer than me. It is amazing for me to speak and train with people who are so much ahead of me in their process. I feel like a baby. It is also humbling: it makes me realize I know so little. What do I have to offer?”
I feel ya. This is how I feel when I reach out to you, and pretty much anyone else already on their path. I appreciate your honesty, it made me feel like I am not alone with these feelings.